So, it’s the waiting game now.
I’m officially past my due date. To be honest with you, I was expecting her right on her due date. Simply because her big sister came literally right on time. I went into labour at midnight and she arrived on her DD. But, I was taught that every pregnancy is different considering I’m sitting here writing this post right now.
Yesterday, I tried everything under the sun & moon to get this thing going. I walked and walked, bounced on a yoga ball, ate pineapple and mango to no avail. Today, I’ve come to the acceptance that my body and baby simply aren’t ready and that I can’t rush mother nature. At least this time around, I’ve dilated. So, I’m content and just enjoying my time with my little family. It is March break after all. I threw on a cute pregnancy dress and tights, straightened my hair and put some makeup on and took my Peanut for a bike ride, lunch and ice cream. Now, she’s playing Rockband while I’m on the PC. She’s killing the drums. I’m so proud. LOL.
Anyway, being pregnant still has given me the chance to relax and really just think about things as a whole. Soon enough, I will have a little person here with us, a little person who solely and entirely will rely on me for every single thing in order to survive in this big world she will be entering. To be gifted with such responsibility is truly a blessing.
I’ve also taken time to consider what time truly has done for me as a person.
How with time and experience, I’ve matured and grown as a person. I’m much more proud of myself now as a person than say the type of person I was a few years back. I think a lot of it has to do with the type of people you surround yourself with. And it isn’t rocket science if you really think about it. If you surround yourself with positive people, your life becomes positive and the same goes for the latter. They say your past molds your present & future. I must say, I agree. I’ve learned from mistakes and never plan to repeat them but, I have to say I do not let my past rule me. I’ve had a rough past that has made me who I am now. Experiences that a lot of people have never had to go through.
As far as lessons learned, I hate to address this because frankly, I’m so sick and tired of doing so, I’m sick of still hearing whispers about people who are no longer important nor relevant in my life and haven’t been for years through mutual acquaintances and third-parties. I’ve slowly and almost completely have weeded these people out of my life because I don’t want to hear it anymore. So soon enough, I won’t hear it. I do poke fun here and there but seriously, if you’re still thinking of me, dreaming of me or talking about me YOU have not moved on.
There’s therapy out there for this kind of problem you know?
Either way, I am not one to judge or tell a parent how to parent but I think that one should think of their children before they open their mouths and act like children themselves. Or when they choose to involve themselves in matters that do not pertain to them. Just accept responsibility for your actions. Know that you’ve wronged and if you schizophrenic-ally believe, you’ve been wronged as well. Last time I checked we graduated high school over 11 years ago. And I’ve said it time & time again, if you take offense while reading this then you have a guilty conscience. This refers to more than ONE person so…
Time heals, time teaches and time changes people and circumstances. My life is complete. I’m going to be a mother to two beautiful little girls, I have a great husband who is kind, caring and loyal and friends I can’t count on the fingers of one hand and a supporting family who have and will always support me. I have health and prosperity. I have much to be grateful for. So, as much as it’s easy to say negative things about people who have done you wrong, it’s useless. Frankly, a waste of time. I, for instance, have too much to live for to even lower myself to such low levels anymore.
That’s why there is the law and my lawyer. LOL. =P
So, Hubby has predicted Thursday for baby’s arrival, I say either Thursday or Friday. Then again, I feel great and if it exists in pregnancy. NORMAL. Braxton-Hicks are regular but not painful. It isn’t pain that I can’t handle. Contractions get painful but again, tolerable. I really don’t feel like it’s “time” yet. Call it instinct or what have you, but I feel so full of energy. Last pregnancy, I was exhausted.
I guess we will have to see.
So much for my so-called hiatus but, I know sometime next week baby WILL be here. Doc only wants to let it go one week and I’m cool with that. Although, I refuse chemical induction. We shall see! Enjoy the sun, enjoy your kiddies and the March Break all!